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it’s funny, she thinks, that her elite have
never been anything more than that to
her. she knows their strengths, flaws,
tics— but she forgets they know hers.
sometimes Ty Lee will breathe silly songs
into her ears while they rest because she
thinks Azula’s asleep. the princess doesn’t
understand what makes her do this, but the
words in the lullabies ring in her ears when
she looks at the other girl, the words she
calls music tell a story: her story.
Azula never tells them how she feels,
if she’s hurt, what her life was like before.
she doesn’t need to. they all have their
sob stories. there’s no use wasting time
crying over something you cant change.
when she looks at Ty Lee she thinks she wants to. change, that is.
but sometimes Ty Lee crosses lines, thinks
Azula cares about her dainty little feelings,
thinks that after all this is said and done the
reward will be something more than good
money and good seat placement at royal
dinners. ( something more like a place beside
Azula, perhaps, when she becomes Fire Lord,
or even something reminiscent of friendship
between them. ) when Ty Lee makes a particularly
personal remark one night, Azula realizes that
they have come too close to that, to
something ‘ m o r e. ‘
she can’t have that.
so because Azula doesn’t want her to
think she’ll allow this kind of familiarity
on this particular mission, she makes a
remark of her own — something about
how, if Ty Lee had been unavailable, any
of her sisters would have been properly
suited to be apart of this team.
because Azula doesn’t care about Ty Lee, or Mai, or Zuko, or anyone.
she only cares about herself.
” Yes. ” she says, back turned to the other girl
because she knows if she turns around she’ll
see her crying. the princess picks at her nails
with a look of boredom on her face. by luck,
the lullabies have silenced for this moment and
she can think clearly— with thoughts untainted
by special words and longing. ” Because you
shouldn’t have any weaknesses. ” she says,
a silent demand that she dares to speak a
moment later.
” If you want to help me finish this mission,
you’ll be sure to toughen up, won’t you Ty Lee ? “
and after that the songs of seven sisters and circus acts and beautiful girls who adore their princesses are silenced, and Azula sleeps soundly.